It’s like a 85% packet loss. Ok done with the technical stuff, you can breathe now. I don’t know how many times I’ve done that. I’m supposed to be friends with this guy just cause he’s in my class so when I spot him on the bus, I try to make conversation. It’s like swimming against a current. I have to do all the work, ask all the questions. Questions are good cause they require answers. But the conversation never goes anywhere, it’s boring questions with short, tedious answers. I hate the one way conversation, it’s such a struggle. "So did you start on that report yet?" "No." "It was funny what the history teacher said today." "Yeah." "So how about that Liverpool?" I, of course, don’t give a damn.

And the sad thing is that sometimes you have to do it because there’s no way to get out of the situation, like meeting someone on the bus. You can choose to sit by yourself, which seems a little funny. Or you can endure it. If you meet them on the street, you don’t even need an excuse to take off. But sometimes you also get it with people you think are your friends or could be. I should have something in common with this person, I’ve heard her talk to other people about things that interest me, yet when I’m here the conversation doesn’t work. Sometimes you both would like it to work but it still doesn’t. And anything you say comes out like a clueless attempt on the other side.

And then there’s people who know how to do this well. The kind of people who can always find something to talk about with someone. I envy them, they got it easy.